Day 10

I’ve been noticing a lot of change in the city lately. It started slowly but once a lot of the major renovations were done, its almost like there was a big bang event and suddenly everyone I knew and interacted with on a regular basis disappeared and bay area transplants took their place.

It was a bit of a wake up call for me.

So I’ve decided to stop drinking alcohol while I’m trying to get settled in my new-ish apartment and my new job. I would like to know how my. Mind and body respond to things I’ve been doing everyday when I’m not not inebriated or hungover.

So far, so good! I’ve been able to donate donates few no longer used or unused items to Salvation Army and rearrange my living space to be more conducive to cleaner, greener living. I’m enjoying it immensely. My goal was two weeks and that’s on its way up faster than I could have imagined. I just might extend my streak just because.

I’ve set new personal records (in the modern era) for my mile time over several miles (mid 7 mins as part of a 3.7 mile run). I’m sure I’m even more capable of just running 1 mile for time. I also have been generally happier so I can probably get off of the antidepressants. To be honest I haven’t used them in over two months since I been exercising regularly and eating better.

Just a quick check in. More to come…

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Forever.

As far as I can tell…

The only thing that lasts forever is death. If there is a rift between you and loved ones, do whatever you can, within reason, to heal it.

Don't waste your time or energy on someone that won't accept love. You'll know when you've reached that point when you become frustrated with trying.

Remain open, but move on.

A New Beginning

Today is Sunday.

Depending on your beliefs this is either the beginning of the week or its the end. I find that fitting since today is my last day of “freedom” before I start a new job tomorrow. Is my new life beginning or is the old one coming to an end?

I’ve had a rough go as of late, what with a divorce, layoff, my car breaking down and my bike being stolen. All within months of one another. *sigh* I’m honestly surprised I’m still standing at all. At times I’ve felt so BROKEN. Physically, mentally and emotionally. But God never gives you more than you can handle, right? You just don’t realize how strong you are until you have to be that strong.

Things are looking up though. My new job is a work from home position so rest assured that I WILL be working in my PJs more often than not. Thinking about that makes me smile 🙂

Since I was laid off I was fortunate enough to put a down payment on another car and replace my bike. So I can distract myself from the pain. But I’d be lying if I said I don’t miss my ex. It’s lonely inside these walls when all you can hear is yourself think.

I’ve told myself that this is all just part of becoming stronger. I’m passing through a tunnel and just don’t see the other side yet. But I know it’s there.

Just gotta keep moving.